She sleeps…

I can catch glimpses of the “old me” from time to time. She is in there still…sleeping. Since the removal of my brain tumor and Pineal Gland, I have struggled with my thoughts. I have struggled to accept that I don’t like some of the same things. I have struggled to accept that I feel things differently. I struggle to accept my new limitations. I get upset and frustrated with myself. I catch myself saying, “you used to be able to” or “you used to like this”. I am different. But the “old me” isn’t completely gone. I am now a hybrid of the parts of me that survived and the new parts that are filling in the gaps.